Almost everyday, i get to open and read the news journal on the net... news about the philippines and the crazy things going on can easily be digested from this site. Personally, it provides information that i can refer to why silly things happen around us.. hey, i am not so inclined to the social, political and economic brouhaha in the past few weeks over the ZTE scam. However it gets to my nerve whenever i realize why life in this beloved land has not changed a bit... with all the ads shown on TV and radio with emphasis on the improved plight of the Filipino people but in reality, it shows otherwise.
I am just a simple government employee, having been in the service for the last 12 years. i began as a classroom teacher and fortunately i was able to grab (hehehe im not convinced with the word i used) a scholarship that led to my transformation from being a teacher to someone who they claim (but i wont) to be as subject specialist.
My work demands so much as it does not just talk about students, grades and teachers. My environment as well as my work has changed fully. What i had in the past as a classroom teacher was just a small chunk of what i have to overcome now. In other words, the challenges that i have to traverse from being a simple classroom teacher to being a content specialist is quite overwhelming. Is there anyone who wants to see a proof? I would be happy to show and differentiate pics taken when i was still a novice in the office and when i was still lording it over in the classrooms. MORE PROOF? Well, i can show my hair now.. Its getting thinner and im loosing a lot of it... Im afraid that if i continue to stay here for 10 more years, i will eventually lose all my hair (hehehe) though both my parents at 60+ are still wearing a healthy, shiny hair.. (lol.... secret.. i will not tell anyone what shampoo are they using.. hahahah)
I am so glad on what i was able to achieve at this time of my life (34). my family and friends also felt the same way as they used to tell me how proud they were for me too. the exposures and the learning that i am getting i guess are worth my stay here.. HOWEVER, i realized that time has gone so fast.. that i am getting older in this work with much knowledge (?) but with no lovelife.. and the worst part i think is that, after working in the government - deped specifically, i have not gained much FINANCIALLY. Consequently, i began to fear for so many things now. I am not financially stable, i have my olds with me, i am still single, still renting a place here and in the province and ive been working for quite a while.. So where am i going to from here? When shall i have a money to buy for our own house? Should i loan or apply through VP Noli de Castro's hoiusing program? Am i going to live for 30 years paying such small very far house?... Is this the life that i deserve after i decided to work in the government in 1994 and passed the board exam for teachers? Am i not deserving of the multi billion pesos they were talking about in the senate (ZTE scam)?
My golly!!! I gave my life.. my youth to this beloved land... but it seems that I AM NOT GETTING ANY and will never be.. when will the government (actually the people occupying high positions) sincerely learn to look after the welfare of simple people working for this country to continuously exist and serve every FILIPINO.. i am not angry, i am just sad to learn where i am now after i joined the government service. WHERE ARE WE GOING FROM HERE?
QUESTION: should i leave the country because there is no more hope for poor, simple and committed workers in this beloved land of ours? OR should i stay, continue to live a life whatever the politicians can offer to us - born, live and die miserably poor...?
The internet has narrowed down the digital divide in the Philippines (likely) but not the ECONOMIC DISPARITY among the people of this beloved land...
Shall we wait for a bloody revolution from these simple, poor people to understand that GOVERNMENT SHOULD EFFICIENTLY SERVE THEM and NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND..???
WHEN SHALL WE LEARN FROM THE HISTORY..? i thought, slavery has ceased more than a century.. BUT THE SAD FATE of this Land reflects that we are still being slaved and maligned none other than the people we trusted.. chosen ... voted..
